Giant toy cars/ unfulfilled

I am only but 22
But I have experienced an emptiness akin 
To 44 year old men 
With giant toy cars
And life-sized barbies to squeeze them in

I too 
crushed this dry fruit
That had become my life 
Head thrust back mouth wide 
With squinted eyes
Drawing the illusion
That a drop of joy might fall and
Graze the tongue 
For I had forgotten it's taste